random love stuff

(Long distance/Complicated) relationships: A good friend was in Makati last Wednesday and so we had coffee. We mostly talked about her love life – the difficulties of a long distance relationship and the overwhelming feeling of being in love. At one point in the conversation, I actually felt lonely. I suddenly missed the feeling of loving someone so deeply. That feeling of helplessness when you see him having to deal with difficult things, wishing that you could make all of those problems disappear. That feeling of uncertainty and certainty all at the same time – unsure of how long your relationship will last, but you know that as of that certain moment you both love each other. If only it was easy for us human beings to just be contented with the present, falling in love will be so much easier. But it is hard to not consider the past and to not think/worry about the future especially when you know that it is just not possible. Was it the right decision to pursue it in the first place? I guess we will only know the answer once we make the decision.

Weddings: I’ve always tried to avoid attending weddings because I really don’t like dressing up and putting on make-up. Plus a dress and a pair of shoes are just too expensive. But since a good friend/officemate is getting married (finally) and he asked us to be candle bearers in the offertory, I felt compelled to attend the wedding. I’m so glad I did. I love weddings now especially when you know the bride and groom quite well and what they have been through. My favorite moment was when the tall door of the church opened and the beautiful bride entered (with Imago’s Sundo playing in the background), I looked at the groom and saw that he was close to tears, smiling, and nodding. I know that such scene is common in movies, but it’s just so different when you see it happen with real people. It was so beautiful and touching.

Fate and free will: “Most people live life on the path that we’ve set for them, too afraid to explore any other. But once in a while, people like you come along who knock down all the obstacles we put your way. People who realize free will as a gift you’ll never know how to use until you fight for it. I think that’s the Chairman’s plan and maybe one day we won’t write the plan, you will.” – Adjustment Bureau

I wish I have my own story.
I pray that my own wedding will be as beautiful and overflowing with love.
I pray that I will be patient when obstacles come our way.

But yes, sometimes, I wish I have my own story to tell.