thankful

It’s 15 minutes before 11pm. The weather is cold. I hear cars passing by outside. And I hear my mother coughing and I see her feeling very cold.

I feel a lot better now after hearing from the doctor that the results of her ultrasound and laboratory test are all normal. But she has typhoid fever, the doctor said it’s manageable and she just needs to rest and take some antibiotics. I still wish though that she’s not here and not looking frail, but I’m just really thankful that it’s nothing serious.

But still. This is the worst feeling ever – having to see one of your parents in a hospital bed and looking frail. Makes you think of the inevitabilities in life and it’s a very scary thought.

But I’ve come to realize that there’s no point in worrying and thinking about those things. We have to accept that sometimes old age comes with a lot of health problems and that we should just deal with them once they happen. All we really can do is pray that He showers them with good health and that He gives us more time to spend with them and make them happy.